The "Me" Monster

Once upon a time, there was a pregnant woman
who only posted things on her "family" blog about herself. 

The end.

Here's to me getting bigger by the week (23):

I need to petition for input from my cute husband, who works so hard and is taking good care of me. And to tell the truth, it is a little harder while pregnant to not think of yourself all the time. I have to keep reminding myself that the world doesn't revolve around ME! It was worse when I was feeling nauseous, because it was hard to think of anything else.
I'm SO grateful to be feeling SO good now! Second trimester is glorious! My body is a little awkward, but not too bad yet. And I'm only emotional occasionally, which I already was before the pregnancy, so I don't feel too bad. :) 

I'm LOVING spending as much time with Bryndon as possible while he's doing his Psychiatry rotation, which is pretty easy-going. After this he'll have his craziest/busiest rotation in Surgery, when I don't plan on seeing him much. Save up your sleep Bryndon! 

The thing I can hardly believe is that after Surgery he'll start his 4th year of Med School! It has gone by quickly and has been just fine so far. I'm planning on his Residency (especially the first year) being the hard time. And lucky us, we'll have a little cutie by then to keep me company! :)

Sweet News

A couple of days ago I hit my 20 week mark, which also meant that last week we were able to have an ultrasound and find out if we are going to have a boy or girl! I was SO anxious to find out. I felt like that would be a big turning point for me in feeling like it was all real, and starting to visualize a real baby. Before we found out, I was getting very tired of saying "he or she" or "it" because that felt so wrong. 

So without further delay... we found out that we have a little 

GIRL inside of me!!!

Out of my family (my husband, parents, siblings and their spouses), only 3 of them guessed right (including Bryndon)! At work, the majority of my coworkers also guessed that it would be a boy. I had them write down their guesses. I wondered why... was it trendy to say "boy"? Am I giving off masculine vibes? Am I just not girly enough for them to imagine me with a precious little girl? Who knows... The funny thing is that I also guessed that it would be a boy--not because of any strong feeling or spiritual prompting, but just because I thought it would be. Even when the ultrasound tech was about to tell us, I thought, "It's going to be a boy." I did have several dreams about babies before then, most of which had baby boys in them, but I did have a number of dreams with baby girls too, so I didn't have anything significant to base my guess from.

Anyway, we are SO thrilled and happy, and anxious to meet her!! I LOVE being able to say "she" as we talk about her, pray for her, and tell people about her. She is moving around quite a bit, and Bryndon felt her kick even as early as a couple of weeks ago! I think it's pretty rare that someone else can feel a kick externally on your belly that early on. We have two hypotheses: either she has Bryndon's huge feet (poor girl) or she is just full of energy and is a strong baby! I hope it's the latter. :) It makes me happy to feel her moving around because it reminds me all the time of what a huge blessing she is to us, and that she must be strong and healthy.

Last night I felt what we assume was my first Braxton Hicks contraction. I woke up in the middle of the night (as usual) to go to the bathroom, slipped gently off the bed, and when I put my weight on the floor, I felt a pretty sharp pain all through my belly that lasted until after I got back into bed and laid their for a while. It was interesting and a little scary because I didn't know what it was at first. I figured if it didn't go away then I'd wake up Bryndon, and luckily it was gone after about 5 minutes or so of lying there. I looked up BH on the web tonight to see what I found and there are plenty of people writing about how they felt them at 20 weeks or sooner. Apparently for some people they don't feel them at all even though they happen all the time after the first trimester, and for others they just feel their belly tightening, and still others feel stronger "discomfort" with the contractions. I can't use the word pain, apparently, because "these don't even compare to the real thing," according to Bryndon. I'm going to pray that my real labor contractions won't be much worse, especially if they're continuous over many hours. :( 

I think I must be a wimp!

We bought a crib and a little baby backpack thing so far, and we'll probably be doing more shopping in the next 6 weeks as Bryndon is in a relatively calm rotation. After that I'll hardly see him for the next 6 weeks of his Surgery rotation, which is supposed to be the hardest. I have a feeling time is going to continue to move slowly through the rest of my pregnancy, because I'm barely past half way! It's hard to believe. (Except for the fact that I've been gaining quite a lot of weight and my clothes don't fit anymore...)

We are so happy about our little girl!!!

Weeeeeee'rrrrrrrrrre.......

PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is kind of anti-climactic, because most of our friends and family have known for a little while now, but I thought I should finally post it on our blog to make it official. :) And I'm not in the mood to write a whole novel on it tonight, so I'll make this short and sweet.

Chronology:


*December 17th we took the cheap pregnancy test (our first time doing that!) and it showed POSITIVE!! I just about flipped, laughing and crying for like an hour. I might post the journal entry I wrote about that moment at a later time. We did the math and figured that I was due August 13th, which was later confirmed by the Doc.
*Mid January I was about 11 weeks when I had my first appointment with the Obstetrician, which was SO amazing because we got to see an ultrasound of the baby in my tummy! And we saw the heart beating away. :) Of course I bawled.
*Next Tuesday I have my second appointment, which I'm also excited for!


Prego Pics...



2 months/9 weeks (above)

11 weeks (above)

14 weeks (above)

One of my new favorite pictures. 

Not that it was taken recently... it was when we went up to Washington 

for our darling niece Abigail's baby blessing in the fall of 2009. 

It was just recently that it became one of my favorite pics of us. :) 

That's all.

The Sound of Music

I decided I'm going to pretend that the stake musical I was in just ended 

so that I don't feel SO incredibly late about it... which is true.

We started rehearsals in September and the last performance was mid-November.

We moved into the Wilford Stake back in August, and had no idea that this stake is WAY into musicals that they put on every other year. The timing for this was just perfect for me. While at church for one of the very first weeks we were there, we saw a poster that advertised the musical auditions. Bryndon was in The Sound of Music production that his high school put on, and was the part of Captain Von Trapp! He, unfortunately, wasn't able to be in the musical because of his rotations at the hospital. But I thought it sounded like a lot of fun, especially because I LOVE the movie version with Julie Andrews, and with his encouragement I decided to go for it and audition.

I was very nervous when I got to the audition, and didn't do nearly as well with my song as I had done in practice. But luckily I was invited to come back for a second audition. I was planning on auditioning for a small-ish part since I knew I might have to miss some rehearsals and go late to others because of my work schedule. But I thought it would definitely be fun to have some sort of speaking part or small solo if possible. To spare you all the boring details, I felt pretty good about the second audition and was offered the part of Sister Margaretta, who is Mistress of the Postulants at the Abbey, and who is kind of an assistant to the Mother Abbess/Reverend Mother. 

She's the nice one, for those of you who are familiar with the show or movie, who is friendly to and sticks up for Maria.

Yes, the picture is pretty silly. And it's even sillier because of all the cast photos, mine was the ONLY one where people aren't being serious or at least just acting their part for the picture. Ha.

Anyway, it was such a fun thing to be a part of! I was so glad to get that part, because I really enjoyed it, and it was a perfect combination of 

not too much to memorize/sing, but enough to be a good experience 

and stretch me a little. I especially loved the rehearsals with Mother Abbess, 

Sister Sophia and Sister Berthe. 

We were the biggest GOOFS and messed around so much. We were almost never serious, which made for really fun rehearsals, and when it came time to get ready for the performances, we had a hard time keeping a straight face sometimes. For example, we made up some extra lines/dances with "How do you Solve a Problem Like Maria" (a-flibbety-jibbety... as we "dosey-doed"). 

I just have to say that the gal who played Mother Abbess is hilarious, and you'd never guess what a joker she is without getting to know her. She also has a great voice and did an amazing job playing her part. 

Here's a picture of the two of us looking mischievous, especially for nuns. :)

Sister Berthe was great at playing her part of the hard, 

tough/mean Mistress of the Novices. 

In the musical she and I were always arguing about Maria and it was fun to 

drive her character crazy with how sicky-sweet my character was.

Sister Sophia was the other nun with me and Sister Berthe 

(on the left) who had speaking/solo parts.

Besides the excellent Maria and Captain, the kids who played 

the Von Trapp children were so cute and fun. 

It was also fun to be part of the big group of nuns (a large portion of the cast). 

They were all adorable and it was great to get to know many of them.

So that's it! Thanks to all those who worked so hard to put it together, because it was such an awesome experience! 

I loved being a part of it and am so glad I had the opportunity!

Exciting month!

There are some exciting things coming up for us in the next month. 
My sister Emily is going to come home from her mission in ITALY on December 3rd (3 1/2 weeks!). 
Then in a month from tomorrow, my brothers and their wives and babies are coming here to visit for our family Christmas celebration!  Then of course Christmas is always wonderful. The whole season is. And no, I don't want to be different by choosing another favorite holiday. :)

I just have to declare that I'm 100% sentimental 
(surprise) and nostalgic, so getting together with my 
family + celebrating Christmas = an overload. 
I even had a dream recently about my brothers coming home and hugging them and crying (don't doubt that'll actually happen when I see them). I can hardly wait to see Ty, Elisabeth, Luke, Jake, Kari, Abigail, and Emily!!!!! 
My family is so important to me. 
I don't know if I'll ever get used to living in a different state than they do and only seeing them a few times each year. But at the same time, that probably makes it even better when I do get to see them.

I have missed Emily so much over the past year and a half. And the last few months senti falta dela (I missed her) even more because I started to let myself get anxious to see her, knowing it was coming fairly soon. She has been doing such an amazing job spreading the Gospel and bearing testimony of Jesus Christ. She has had a lot of health issues relating to her jaw, her stomach and hips. The worst has been her hips, since she relies so much on them for walking many miles each day. I remember feeling pain in my hips my first week in the mission field in Brazil, but then it went away as my legs got used to so much walking. I'm sure her difficulty is different than mine because it's still plaguing her. But she has persevered and continued with so much faith and long-suffering. 
I am proud of her for having such a great attitude.

 Emily and me, the night I said goodbye to her before she left on her mission.

I'm also excited to get to know her again. That doesn't mean that she'll be a completely different person. I just mean that I'm sure she has changed and grown in many ways, and it'll be fun to spend time together. Before she left, she had been up at Utah State for school, and I didn't see her very much and regretfully didn't even talk with her much on the phone. At that time, I was very busy myself with my last semesters of school and working full-time and performing with choir, etc. Now I'm only working and have more time to be nostalgic. :) In fact, I realized that since I got married, I value girlfriends so much more that before. I need girl time! 
...Which brings me back to my last post...

GIRLS

Girls need girls, and guys need girls. Aren't we wonderful? 
Everyone needs us! Kidding... kind of. 

I know everyone is different and not everyone will agree with me, but one thing is certain: most girls literally need time with girlfriends, whether that's a mom, sister, relative, neighbor, friend from school, coworker, etc. Most guys just seem to be content with their wives or girlfriends on a regular basis and don't feel that strong need to spend time with other guys.

Don't get me wrong: when I say that I need girl time, that in no way means that I'm mad at Bryndon or am bored with him or he doesn't make me happy and content. I absolutely love spending time with him--in fact, I'm always desperate to spend more time with him. He is so fun and loving, and I need time with him way more than anyone else in the world. I'm talking about an emotional need for additional time with girls that cannot be fulfilled by any man. Girls understand girl emotions, girls want to talk and talk and talk, and we somehow enjoy all talking at the same time. 
Girls are silly, girls are girly, girls are fun, girls are sensitive, girls are crazy, girls are friendly, girls are sweet. Girls will be girls.

(Picture: me and my cousin girlfriends, the "Beach Babes" on the "banana" at Hebgen Lake years ago)

There have been times when I have really missed certain friends from high school, institute/sorority at the U, old neighbors, old coworkers, and mission companions, and felt a lack of girlfriends who live within a drivable distance. I love making new friends and am often eager to become closer. It has been fun to be in two different wards since we got married, giving me the 
chance to get to know some special women in each area. 
Of course it's the best when you find someone you feel a special connection with, someone with whom you find many commonalities, and someone who is as eager to develop a friendship as you are. That can and should definitely happen within your own family, besides with friends outside the family. And something I have always felt strongly about is that two girlfriends need to put equal amounts of effort into the relationship to get the maximum enjoyment. It's just like a dating relationship in that there needs to be a balance between the two people. 

One of the best feelings in the world is to know that you cherish someone and they cherish you, no matter what kind of relationship.

As I search for new girlfriends and hold on with my might to those I already have, I invite every girl to value their girlfriends. Coordinate a healthy amount of husband/boyfriend/guyfriend time (obviously essential) with some occasional but regular girl time! We all need it!